Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Sam is who she is now, and I couldn't love her more. But sometimes my mind drifts back to the things she used to do....the things she doesn't do anymore. I'm conflicted. Should I remember or should I forget? I want to do both and I want to do neither.
It hurts so much to remember the way she used to be, before her regression. She was always behind, but she was making progress. Looking back, she always had some things about her that now make me think "autism". Like twisting her hands and feet, and clapping her feet together. We thought they were quirky traits. She also didn't get into things like most babies do. She never emptied out her toy box. She didn't get mad when someone took something away from her.